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Voglio vederti, fosse pure per pochi minuti. = I would like to see you, even if it's only for a few moments.

Causing pain, to hurt someone. That's the last thing that You wanna do on this planet. Though it happens. Misunderstandings, arguing, shouting. A knife in your back. Starting to realise you should open your heart. It's not easy, when your heart is full of wounds, that still bleed. Trust a new person. You would say never again. But should it stay like this forever? No. But sometimes you are just to week to do anything. Or maybe deep in you, you are afraid to make the first steps, but if someone else makes those few steps, you get afraid.

No matter what you say about love, you keep coming back. You act like a statue, but deep in you, I know there is a heart, that is beating faster and faster. I am sick of playing these games. I could admit that I am wrong. I am sorry, but I have to be strong, and move on. Nothing is broken. I loved you. You are on my heart like a tattoo. I'll always have you. You wanted passion. Sorry, but my heart is long time ago broken.

You change your mind, like a girl changes it's clothes. You are hot then you are cold, you are up, then you are down. You don't really wanna stay. You are YES then you are NO. WE used to be friends, we used to laugh, and now everything has gone wrong.

I am something else. I lost my mind a dozen times, now it won't happen. You beg for my love, but if I don't give it immediately, you shout and argue. You beg me to trust you, you say you did everything for me. You really did everything for me EXCEPT for one thing. You didn't understand me. You don't know me, but judge me by my words.

You got to save me from myself. I am sorry for everything, maybe one day you forgive me, maybe one day I forgive to myself, and to others too.

P.S. Never forget me

And I wonder if you know, how it really feels...

Everybody has problems. So do I. You may ask what are girls biggest problems. Guess. That's right, boys. Always the boys. Of course I do know it's the same in the other way. Boys have always problems with girls.

How should I know if a boy is only playing with me, or does he have real feelings. With real feelings I mean ...well, I don't really know what I mean. It's just that, you think "it's like this, but it's like that". How should I know if he is really into me. Nobody can ever know. I am already 19 years old, and still naive, and try to learn from my faults. That just don't works always. When you are into someone, and think like the whole world has stopped for one moment. Just for one moment. You have the feeling you are ment to be together. But then after a while you figure it out that you are totally wrong. But than there is a bit of hope, that maybe, but only maybe you are wrong. And then everything gets worse.

You are patient, try to be nice, always smile, but deep in you you bleed, and cry. You feel lonely and try to break free. But there is no way out. You are getting this strange feeling, that you -maybe- never had before. Then you start to think: " What do I really feel deep in my heart?" Then you start to realize something awful. You are going down babe. That's right. You start to fall in love. Of course you don't want that. But the feeling got you. And this is why you wanna run away, get as far as you can. But your heart keeps holding you back, and making you ask yourself: " Does he love me too?Sure he does, he is nice. NICE. Not in love. Nice. " Cauz if he would be in love with you he would never ever tell you. You may ask why? Cauz he is proud, he is a boy. That's why.

In English

RISE, Magyar! is the country's call!
The time has come, say one and all:
Shall we be slaves, shall we be free?
This is the question, now agree!
For by the Magyar's God above
We truly swear,
We truly swear the tyrant's yoke
No more to bear!

Alas! till now we were but slaves;
Our fathers resting in their graves
Sleep not in freedom's soil. In vain
They fought and died free homes to gain.
But by the Magyar's God above
We truly swear,
We truly swear the tyrant's yoke
No more to bear!

A miserable wretch is he
Who fears to die, my land, for thee!
His worthless life who thinks to be
Worth more than thou, sweet liberty!
Now by the Magyar's God above
We truly swear,
We truly swear the tyrant's yoke
No more to bear!

The sword is brighter than the chain,
Men cannot nobler gems attain;
And yet the chain we wore, oh, shame!
Unsheath the sword of ancient fame!
For by the Magyar's God above
We truly swear,
We truly swear the tyrant's yoke
No more to bear!

The Magyar's name will soon once more
Be honored as it was before!
The shame and dust of ages past
Our valor shall wipe out at last.
For by the Magyar's God above
We truly swear,
We truly swear the tyrant's yoke
No more to bear!

And where our graves in verdure rise,
Our children's children to the skies
Shall speak the grateful joy they feel,
And bless our names the while they kneel.
For by the Magyar's God above
We truly swear,
We truly swear the tyrant's yoke
No more to bear!

Do you know what is this? It almost sounds better in English, than in Hungarian.

Memories by prince Arthas

Many many years ago, on a grey autumn day, when the sky was full of dark clouds, I began with my journey. I had no idea where to go, but my hearth was calling me, like nothing before.

I took my things and rode a horse. After a few days, I found what I was looking for.

A black castle, on a high hill, next to a lake. I went there with a haste. The castle was old, and cold, it had high walls, and nothing nice, that could make you feel comfortable.

I stood in front of the huge door, and wanted to rap on. Before I had my chance, the door opened by itself. I was like WOW, what the hell is going on!?

I opened my eyes wide, I wish I wouldn't have been in such a fright. My hands were shaking, my hearth beat fast, but I know I had to make the first step. Inside the castle it was dark, and only a few candles gave some light. I took one in my hand, and then I was frightened by myself. You ask why? Because a question appeared in my mind. This is a castle, thousand years old, there is nothing here, not even a soul. But then who lit the light? I asked a question in my mind. I walked through the corridor, and I felt the sorrow in the walls. There was something strange, that I couldn't explain.

I found a staircase, I know I had to go that way. I found a window, and I saw that outside the wind blow. A storm was coming, there was lightning. I felt that my quest was near, I just didn't have to be afraid.

I walked alone, on this cold corridor. I didn't even really know where to go. Then I saw this room, where somebody stood. She was looking out the window, like an old, sad widow. She wore a black coat, which came down all the way to the floor. She turned around, dropped her coat, and then I saw something incredible.

She had wings, like birds, and a smile like no girl. She was beautiful. She was a seraph. As I looked in her eyes, I started to realize. She was my angel, the one who belongs to me. My only guardian, who protects me. From that moment I knew, I had nothing to lose. I found what I was looking for. I got back my true soul.

Do you have an angel too? I know I do .

What I like....chapter 2

Hello you all,

this week I am going to speak about my holiday in Greece. I spent in that beautiful, warm country 10 days. Well, not exactly 10 days, because the trip took us 1 day, by bus. It was organized by my school again. Like the London trip. Anybody could come. This was in 2006, the 19Th of July.

It was just as wonderful as in London. Maybe a bit better, because we weren't rushing the whole day, like going here, then going there. We had our own free time, everybody did what he/she wanted to. There was one, or two days when we had a collective programme. One day we visited the Meteoras..dunno how to spell it good. That's a place where monks are. So it's ...ah..it's hard to explain. These are some kind of temples, which are on the peak of the mountains, very high. Well, you have to know , that Greek people are very, and I mean VERY religious. Anyway, the churches looked amazing. And, we went to the "Fountain of life"....and I drank from it, so hopefully I will live for ever :)

The next day, when we had this joint programme with everybody else, it was a tour, by ship, to Turtle Island. And now imagine it, sunshine, white sand,palm trees, blue ocean. Hm...wonderful.

Oh, and another great thing. I ate Greek food. You know what that means? Yep. Octopus, clam, and stuff like that. It's not that bad at all. You had to chew it a bit better, than chicken, but it had a nice taste.

Anyway, besides these 2 days, I spent my whole day laying in the sun, on the beach, and bathing in the cold sea. And I saw a few fish, and jellyfish. They kind of scared me :) And I caught a starfish. A very small one, and a few sea urchins. Yes, I know, it's not a nice thing. Sorry, I apologize.

Anyway, all in all, it was a beautiful holiday. But for now, I am saying good bye, sleep well.

What I like....chapter 1

Hello Everybody,

In this blog I am going to tell you , what I like the most. Can you guess? No? Then let me tell you. I just LOVE traveling ( specially to other countries) and meeting new people. In my next blog I am going to tell you stories, where have I been, and what have I done.

Chapter One: Belgium - England - France

It was in 2005 when a group of my classmates had decided to go to London. Our school organized a trip there, and anybody could volunteer, who wanted to. A few of my friends, and I have chose to go there,we thought it will be fun. Our journey started on the 12Th of July. Just when the terrorists have put bombs in English subways. It was kind of scary to travel like that. But we weren't feared so much. The voyage took 2 days, by bus.All in all the holiday lasted for 10 days. As we were touring , to catch a ferry , we stopped in Belgium,Brussels for a day. Just to look around. It was amazing. Awfully big city , with so old houses, and so tight streets, that I have never imagined. I felt like if I have had gone back in time. Just like in the medieval period. It was so amazing. We saw the atomic stuff, I don't know officially what is it called :) anyway...

The next morning we took a ferry to Dover. Good old England...WE ARE COMING! Seeing the sea was amazing. It was so dark blue, and wavy, and there were huge, white (rather black :) )clouds everywhere on the sky. After almost an hour of traveling, we saw the enormous, white cliffs of the British Island. That's something you have to see. Really. If you were already in England you know what I mean. What a feeling it was.

We spent like 6 days in England. We looked around in London on the first days, I can't find words for it, how beautiful it was. And so calm. Nobody is rushing there, everybody is patient. Not like in Hungary. I always think....why can't Hungary be like that ? What do you think? One of the days we visited Stonehenge, and Oxford, and some other close towns. Some old churches,museums, and everything.It was very tyring, but it was worth the energy. It was one of the best experiences in my life.

As we finished sightseeing in England, on the 8th days, we started our journey way back home. We took a ferryboat again, but at this time from Dover to Calais. That's right! We went to France, to Paris :) Spent a day there too, went to Madame Tussaud, Moulin Rouge, Louvre, Eiffel Tower. It was a great 2 days also. But sadly the gossip is true. There are a lot of rats in Paris. :( But its OK, They are small :)

Sorry Victoria, Beckham is my husband from now on :D ...

Hope you enjoyed my story, see you next week, ...where the topic will be Greece :)
Take care ...

Thinking

Hello

It's Saturday. I should enjoy my weekend, and think on the fall break. To tell you the truth nothing interesting happened, and I got bored.

One day I got some thoughts. I was sitting out side, and watching as the leaves fall down. Pink, red, brown. Cold wind blows, and the clouds pass by fast on the sky. It's getting colder, and colder with everyday, and you start to think, or at least me.

When you just think about the past, and try to imagine the future. It gives you a good feeling. Just to sit down, and relax. Luckily I live in the suburb where cars rarely pass by. At nights there is only a little light. You can sit outside, and watch the stars.

I remember when in summer I couldn't sleep , and I set in my window, and gazed the stars. It was 3 o'clock in the morning, and I saw a falling star, not just one, but like 5 . It was amazing. I haven't seen them in ages. At that moment, I began to wonder. Was I really so busy, to not pay attention to such small things? Am I really so busy, that I can't stop for one moment and enjoy the small things in life? No, I don't think so. It's just that sometimes I forget the beautiful things in life. Like everybody does that once in a while. Don't you think so?

Like for example. When was the last time when a puppy licked your hand? When was the last time when you gave a big hug to your parents, or to a friend? Do you still remember what's it like to ride a bicycle? To laugh so hard that your face hurts?

Amazing, there were so many things that I did as a child, and now days I seem to forget it. I am a bit mixed up, so I will sleep before things get worse in my head. :)

Have a nice night, take care.

Back again

Hello!

It's Tuesday again, time is going fast. Maybe...too fast. But it's OK.

I played on my computer the whole weekend . The best game ever ...Sims 2 :) Don't look strange. It's a cool game :) OK, maybe it's not ment for my age, but I don't really care about that.

Well, I don't play that often on the computer, but let's say twice a week, or to tell you the truth it depends on my mood. I like all kind of games. Racing games, killing games, adventure games...My favourite was, or ....ok...I still like it.. Baldur's GateII. , Tomb Raider I-IV. ,Sims..and so on :)

Today we wrote an exam. It was OK. It was funny :)

I just discovered how to use a spellcheck ..wow...it's here on the toolbar. I can check English, German, Spanish...and every kind of language, that's very cool. First step, make a blog like this, and you will get a google toolbar, and there you have a "ABC check" sing, click on it, and it will help you, and check your messages. Awesome .

Joe, hope you are proud of me , that I discovered this :D well, OK, I saw it before too, but I was always shy to try it.

Well, that's for today. Have a nice night ..and a great week ..bye

A great week

Well, it's Sunday again. In a few hours I am going to leave Kaposvár again, and start my journey to Pécs. That's at least 1 and a half an hour of travelling, but I don't really care. For me it's fun to travel.

Anyway, the thing that I wanted to speak about is, that we made party again on Tuesday. I was just going on the corridor to get a drink, when all of a sudden who do I see? David, our English classmate, and than another English classmate and another and another :D I was like.." wow...ok...what's going on here? What's with all the people? " It was great to get known to them a bit more.

Just for the memories :) It was a nice night. I had my old friends there, and made new friends .

Sadly I have to go now, pack my things, and go to Pécs. Take care everybody, and have a nice day :)

last week

Hm...another week has passed by...nothing interesting happened. Mainly this is the reason why I didn't write in my blog. The days in school were nice. Met some new people, maybe they will become my friends in the future. Who knows? !

On Tuesday we went to a party with some of my friends. It was awesome. We danced a lot, had some fun, and then went back to our apartments. Slept like 4 hours, cauz next day there was school again....my first lesson started at 8 ..oh my...its so early for me :) and it was an English lesson...ahh..had to pay much attention...I often didn't know what were we speaking about.

But the weather was awful...always raining...somewhere heavy rain, somewhere lighter rain...cold wind ...ahh...and the worst thing: I left my autumn jackets at home. Great ...I had only a warm sweater...luckily one of my classmates lent me one of her jackets . I still cant believe it , that's its the 20th of September and its 8 degrees. I remember last year ...it was like 20 degrees for sure. I wore a t-shirt, and short jeans. Its amazing. Now days I have to wear long jeans, sweater, scarf . I would like to go back in time. To feel the summer sunshine. Eat ice cream , drink cold cocktails, sleep the whole day, and not worrying about being lazy. Good old summer time .

I don't like it when its bad weather. Specially when its raining. If it's cold, then it should be winter. :) I like winter very much. There is nothing better than building a snowman :)

well, I am getting tired..so I decided to sleep :) have a nice night everyone , take care ...

rain

Well, yeah, I just wanted to write this blog, when it began to rain, there was thunder and lightning, and than everything went away, the computer turned off....great....hope it won't happen again

So, the first week in school was ok. Not the best, but it was fun anyway. But I think I will be a bit bored in the next weeks. We will see. I am not really interested in the curses. Only the English lessons.
But finally I got home, and can enjoy my life again. Meet friends, party and so on.
Have to take care about my dog, Fiffi :) Isn't she cute? !

So, so much for now, this was the test part, to see if everything is working here, see ya tomorrow...